Vindicate me, O Lord, for I have walked in my integrity, and I have trusted in the Lord without wavering. Prove me, O Lord, and try me; test my heart and mind. For your steadfast love is before my eyes, and I walk in faithfulness to you. (Psalm 26: 1-3)

The psalmist is more sure of himself than I am. I trust God and certainly I want to walk with God.

But the psalmist almost boasts of living as God intended. He is certain he has lived with tom: integrity, wholeness, as originally intended.

With God's help - often through trial and testing - I am moving closer to wholeness, but I am still a creature of many sometimes contradictory parts.